Little bit about me

I wonder if i'll get lotsa haters in here buh anyway i don't care.....i'mma christian dude n born again* n also gay...I'm in ma early 20s n a student in 1 of the public university n also a strong believer..I'mma choir member in our church n ma pastor iz 1 heck of a homophobe.. a Sunday wont pass without him criticizing n condemning gay guys....I dare him to ask me bout ma thoughts concerning homosexual...i bet dat day I'll b expelled from da choir n maybe da church..Ma friends dunno if I'm gay coz I'm alwayz widda chiqs n av had galfwendz b4 though nothing sexual happened between us....I know I'm not straight neither bi...I'm gaythough i don't accept ma sexual orientation fully...Av tried numerous tymes 2 commit suicide b4 buh i dint succeed n now i know God luvs me dats y he dint Lemmie die so 2 all em homophobes/haters THIZ QUEER GUY AIN'T GOIN NOWHERE till God sayz so.I know i was born Gay n there's nuthin lyke i adopted thiz culture from the west or it bcoz of da environment i waz raised in that made me lyke boyz....I can vividly recall when i waz 6yrs old having a crash on ma classmate<a boy> n dat tyme we had no Telly  4 me 2 imitate da west whom i believe by dat tyme had started 2 recognise gay guyz....I know counselling wont/cant change ma sexual orientation coz av bn counselled b4 n nuthin changed...I'm still da same kuchu boy dat most Straitguyz luv 2 hate.....Think av said enough 4 2day..Y'all do av a great day..CIAO