Ma wkd

Mhhh...Da weekend wasn't dat bad..I happen 2 C ma primary skul crush..DARN!!! he looked fyne as hell..I'm thinking of opening up 2 him though he b straight n born again, so i'm told..Lord gimme enough guts 2 tell him watsup. Whenever i c diz guy from my hood i just cant stop checking him out..i alwayz want 2 stop him n say hi 2 him buh i'mma afraid of his reaction..He's so hood n i lyke dat n also he b hawt..He's bn on ma mynd 4 a long tyme though av never said a word 2 him...I'm ever afraid of sum1 from my hood finding out dat i'm gay dats y I dont do blind dates nor do i lyke meeting wid gay guyz especially em feminine 1s..I alwayz chill out wid my straight friends though most of em r homophobes..i suspect some of em r queer buh on the DL...I did clubbing diz wkd n i saw 2 guyz kissing each other on the dance floor n boy waz i shocked..they dint even give an eff of da repercussion...All in all i did enjoy ma wkd...Enjoy ur wk y'all
      I TOTALLY DIG DIZ SONG

Little bit about me

I wonder if i'll get lotsa haters in here buh anyway i don't care.....i'mma christian dude n born again* n also gay...I'm in ma early 20s n a student in 1 of the public university n also a strong believer..I'mma choir member in our church n ma pastor iz 1 heck of a homophobe.. a Sunday wont pass without him criticizing n condemning gay guys....I dare him to ask me bout ma thoughts concerning homosexual...i bet dat day I'll b expelled from da choir n maybe da church..Ma friends dunno if I'm gay coz I'm alwayz widda chiqs n av had galfwendz b4 though nothing sexual happened between us....I know I'm not straight neither bi...I'm gaythough i don't accept ma sexual orientation fully...Av tried numerous tymes 2 commit suicide b4 buh i dint succeed n now i know God luvs me dats y he dint Lemmie die so 2 all em homophobes/haters THIZ QUEER GUY AIN'T GOIN NOWHERE till God sayz so.I know i was born Gay n there's nuthin lyke i adopted thiz culture from the west or it bcoz of da environment i waz raised in that made me lyke boyz....I can vividly recall when i waz 6yrs old having a crash on ma classmate<a boy> n dat tyme we had no Telly  4 me 2 imitate da west whom i believe by dat tyme had started 2 recognise gay guyz....I know counselling wont/cant change ma sexual orientation coz av bn counselled b4 n nuthin changed...I'm still da same kuchu boy dat most Straitguyz luv 2 hate.....Think av said enough 4 2day..Y'all do av a great day..CIAO